Joking

Sitting up the back Listening to the other kid's joking about being depressed Makes me feel ashamed of who I am They don't know the suffering and pain it causes It brings highs Thats the fun part Feeling on top of the world Everything is going your way Then you fall Fall further then where you started Lows are what they call them Demons of our lives Reminding me of past mistakes To never make again Just wanting them to leave Never to return Never to haunt me again In my dreams, in my mind all the time Nobody notices Red rimmed eyes Scarred arms Empty eyes full of despair Wouldn't care if I never came back Take them a while to realize one is missing One of the crowd has passed on Few tears but they never knew what was going on Wouldn't even care, if they did know